Tackling fear of others’ opinions
I’ve wrestled with fear a lot over the last month. I’d let it infiltrate my self-confidence, my abilities, and the vision I’d set for myself and my work. I’d even let those negative feelings put a strain on my marriage. The stress of self-doubt was lurking beneath the surface, manifesting itself in some pretty unhealthy and damaging ways, many of which I’m embarrassed and even ashamed to think back on.
Entrepreneurship is terrifying
Entrepreneurship can feel like sticking your neck out. You put an idea out there, bring it to life, and hope it’ll resonate with the world. And, sometimes it doesn’t. Or, at least, not at first. This level of vulnerability – where you’ve invested time, money, energy, resources, and most importantly, your heart, can lead to a great deal of anxiety.
If I’m completely honest, my anxiety was causing me to resort to some pretty extreme measures. I interviewed for some jobs in the UK, in hopes of moving away from Toronto and starting a new life (albeit temporarily) in London. Although my husband and I love the idea of traveling and working abroad, right now isn’t the best time for us to drop everything and leave home. And, especially not for the reasons I’ve been wanting to leave.
Pushing past fear
So, rather than run away, which I’d prefer to do right now, I will hold my head up high, and keep moving forward.
Despite the fear.
Despite the self-doubt.
Despite the negativity or apathy I’ve encountered from people around me.
Ultimately, I can rest assured that at the end of the day, whether I win or completely fall flat on my face with failure, at least I tried. At least I dared to live an adventure; to walk a path for which I didn’t know the end; to challenge myself beyond what I thought I was capable of.
I’m still scared, but determined.
I’m still scared, but focused.
I’m still scared, but, I feel better.
Here’s to the fact that my inbox has been blowing up lately… 😉